how to be totally unhappy in a peaceful world

I have read many of how to books lately such as How to improve your life, how to plant vegetables, how to run on the muddy sand and so on but all of these are incomparable with this book
how to be totally unhappy in a peaceful world.
Really all of how to be unhappy day to day life.

At first because of the name that i picked it up and started to read but after that i couldn't stop reading it until going to the end. Many of those how to are what i am doing that make me unhappy for so long and to my astonishment many people are still doing it again and again.

I can tell you some of those how to such as,
look and feel sorry for your failure in your life all the time,
leading your day to day life in stress,
having most debts,
for sex you must expect the impossible together such as reaching orgasm together all the time or not later than 5 seconds,
must smile only with most reasonable reasons,
laugh as little as you can
and so on.

I think if only i practice some of these behaviors i will be definitely live in despair all of my life.

The good thing of this book is when we know that all of those practices lead us to despair then we should do in contrast. it said never exercise so now i run every evening and it make me happier now.

That is one thing out of many that i gain from this book.

end of chinese new year festival

This evening today i run again on the Songkhla beach near my house. Today my wife also runs along. After we run together for about 5 minutes my wife could not go any longer because this is her first day so she wants to run at the road near our house instead. So i off alone on the beach as usual.

Today is the last day for the Chinese new year festival so fewer people are on the beach. last weeks many people from areas near this place came to this beautiful beach . They came in families, with couples, lovers, group of friends and some came alone. on my running route i chatted with some people too. That was very good for me to see them at the beach near my house.

So many people come to visit this place while many of us also go to other places. People do no satisfy with what they have. That is normal i think.

I love this place very much thought not so often that i come to enjoy the atmosphere. Mostly i run in the evening about 1 or 2 hours only. Some days if i am too tired during the day work so i just skip my routine.

Out of people on the way i also see things like stone, trees, seashells, rock in the sea and many more things. i like to see it all especially stone on the beach. there are many forms but mostly round. i feel that each stone has its own history. If i can know its background so I may know how long it has been there or what i has seen on this planet.

i feel that there are so many things around me to learn only i open my eyes to see and think about it.

thoughts

The foolish act and then think afterward, this leads to mistakes and endless trouble.

The clever think frist and act afterward, And often ride in a labyrinth of imagination. Many times their thoughts obstruct their own courage.

The wise act out of thought and think as they act, Making activity practical and possible . They are safe from illusion, save energy and time, And travel the smooth path to success

from the book The foolish, the clever, the wise by chai na pol.

in my opinion things are not good or bad by itself. All those are we who give them the feelings of it. Because we compare things so we see the differences. We see white so there is black or we see darkness so we have brightness. Without comparing our soul will rest in peace.

mind

The foolish, although they possess a mind, Are unable to understand their own thinking process, Yet try to manage that of others; They suffer from interference.

the clever have a mind, and fully recognize it, They gain benefits when they keep alert.

The wise have a mind, and clear recognition of it. They visualize the mind's structure and the power inside, And cultivate its greatness.

from the book The foolish, the clever, the wise by chai na pol.

self recogntion

The foolish have no understanding of the life they live, So they fear to be on their own And often find themselves in grief.

The clever understand themselves, But do not realize the goodness beyond their lives, They are too busy pushing themselves to become gifted.

The wise know the momentary Self in which they live .Engaged in the powerful bubbles of life , They make the most of each bubble, knowing it will soon vanish.

from The foolish, the clever, the wise by chai napol.

From The foolish The clever The wise book

A friend of mine lent me a book name
The foolish, The clever , the wise telling of some encouragement words. I would like to share all those words with all my friends so i will put them here one by one. I hope you will like it.

Destination

The foolish live their lives without a destination, Floating along aimlessly, Often finding themselves at the starting conditions.
The clever often set unreacable destinations, Bearing these burdens on their shoulders, Always regarding where they stand with destinations.
The wise know their ultimate destination in life, Meeting small destinations on the ladder to success, They achieve hope and happiness throughout their journey

the beach, songkhla

I ran again on the beautiful beach yesterday. it was such a nice atmosphere to see many people walking, running and taking photos for their own memories. This beach many people wanted to come, to visit too once in their lifetime. There are not many place that people in this area wanted to visit before they leave. those are, The pagoda at Nakhonsrithammarar, The Suan moke temple at Surathani, Luang poo tuad temple at pattani and, ofcourse, this Songkhla beach. People want to come to visit this beautiful mermaid statue which was situated on the beach for a long time.

after i ran then i walked back to my house. That was the beautiful relax feelings that i wish to share with all my friends, Bill, Frank, Dang, p khao, p mol, Donna, Mark, Eiry, Maya, Ken , Suchart, noi, somrit, wat, mard, eh, nui, kiat. I wish that one day we can be together again on a big boat cruising away to the islands once we had visitted.

Miss you all my good friends. have a nice day today.

internet cafe

there are not many things that i think it is very much convenient for me when i am not at home in front of my computer. Internet cafe is one of it that it help me to update my blog and checking my e mails all the time.

Nowadays i have to be at my daughter school all day because i have to come to another city in the morning and go back in the evening with her. during the day i don't have anything to do much so i just join an internet cafe at near my daughter's school to check my e mails and udate my blog, chat with my friends who are online.

Intrnet cafe is good in a way but we have to pay the charge too. here it cost me TB 15 per 1 hour.

not so bad for communication update.

Are you lonesome tonight?

I am not asking you if you are lonesome tonight because i don't want to know about it.ofcourse i am lonesome sometimes and so do you.

i am talking about the name of the song sung by elvis presley, the rock idol who passed away sometimes ago. if you still remember.

i like this song very much. I think the singer sung in the mood of very much missing of his lover who has left him away. I can imagine how he felt when he sung the song. I think that is the best song ever sung by elvis presley.

are you lonesome tonight?
don't say no, i am busy, please.

the new day, dawn of life

i woke up at 3.30 a.m this morning and couldn't anymore go on my sleeping.As a man of age 54 i think 6 hours may be enough for resting each day because i slept so early last night.

i have just coming to look at my life now. wondering how i have lived up this so long. I have passed so many things since i was born. I should have died since i was a child when i was very sick, as my father told me, because of some serious sickness which he did not know what it was. That was the first time of.

I was nearly shot down in the crash of October 6, when the political riot occurred in Bangkok. I and my wife were in the middle of rainy bullets that came to us in all directions but we managed to survived anyway.

When i was in the middle east, working in the hotel business, the heat there and the dust storm was nearly kill me and my friends . Lost in the desert for 2 days without any food and the heat that rose nearly 70. That was a serious situations but we managed to come up to the village and back to the hotel after the dust storm.

An old Chinese says there never have an unending party. That is true. We have friends , dear friends and many others who are very good to us. All my life out of business i had helped some of my friends until they can stand on their feet. After that i just pulled myself out because i do not want any reward. Friends should help friends the best he can.

After the party i am glad that there is still a friend who still help me to wash the floor and clean the mess from the party, others left to their own house. I know that we will have parties again and still i will invite them but this my friend left i will have to give him the best seat, tea, i can, of course. We will sit down, zip some tea,or lay down chat until we fall in sleep, may be until dawn.

We learn much when we are sad or when we are in trouble. I knew some of my friends who i think he can help but in time of my trouble which i think he can help but just sorry, can not help. we learn who will sit at our bed when we are sick or who will pad our back when we cry. Mostly are those who are close to us now but we just ignore them because we are very close, may be too close. That is one thing i learn, too close will loose, too tight will drop. Thanks.

Nearly dawn now and i am talking to myself in the darkness. it is still dark but soon there will be light shines to wake up all creatures again as it is since this world exist. This is the new day and i wish that today will not be like yesterday. I will have to travel again to my daughter's school and will be free again for 8 hours. The free 8 hours that i had to sit, walk, alone and talking to no one.Quite bitter situation that a father has to bear.

the new day, new dawn of my life that i wish this is the good day for me.

Thanks for reading.

This is the wonderful world.

From views of the world

Dear friends, boys and girls i have very wonderful experiences to share with you today.

well if you had read my previous articles on msn again which i wrote this morning you will know that i was extremely sad this morning because when i was in a very good mood my image of a beautiful lady business women was torn apart by only a word.
stupid !!
That word destroy my day dearly. i was not happy for the rest of the day.

this evening on my way back home just nearly to my house drove pass the beach, songkhla beach. I saw so many people so i had thought that it might be nice to run at that time.

Just right when i park my car i put on my t shirt, short pant and a tennis shoes and off shooting out to the beautiful bech.it was so nice at that time . i saw the sparkling light of the twilight sun on the drifting sea. the golden sand was so nice that i was stunned when i saw it. i was here for a long time but never feel such beauties of the nature like today. All my misery was washed out and i kept on running on the beautiful beach. i was tired but my mind was fresh of the oxygen into my cells and the happiness hormone poured over my weary body.

I saw many things on my running path. I saw lovers walking hand in hand, stealing a kiss, see friends running together as well as families with kids, people cycled passed by in groups. flock of Birds flew in the twilight sun. all this nature shines into my eyes vividly until i can not help to share with you all.

friends i wish that you all are with me, running together in very good weather of twilight sun. we can sit down on the big stones and chat of our life that passed by us.

my life is not long in the future may be not longer than 15 rainy seasons to come. i wish that one day we will all unite again as we used to do in our younger age.

i am longing to see you all, dear friends.

my msn again

i had got very sad lessons this morning regarding using my msn. the experiences that people may not see things at the same perspective as i am. Something that i think that is good such as caring and expressing my self freely but somepeople may not think as i expected and think that i should reduce it down a bit.

Well ! i have to accept that i was not happy very much this morning because when i came in i expected that i should have priviledge to have good morning becasue i could sleep well last night thought it was quite late.

When i opened my msn this morning i was shocked to see many cursing, explanations on my screen. Something that i had already made it clear last night. i asked to stop because i did not want to argue of the topic anymore but it was useless. cursing and doubting explanations still came in. So i had to say goodbye.

after i came back to my sense i thought it much of using msn and other voip programs anylonger. is it really useful to use it both skype and msn? Becasue when i look back all the time lately i was so upset manytimes and made myself very much unhappy.

many of my american friends know how to use the programs well and used to use it before but they do not use it any longer. may be they have the same experinces as me and decided to stop too. only they are braver than me to stop using it longer.

I had terminated both programs many times from my computer but eventually i installed it back again. as i said that it rooted too deep in my mind to use the programs until i gave myself up many times. i was not happy when i gave up because it showed the weakness of myself. Now this time i decided to do it again but may be i will not do it but rather control myself in using it. I want to see too how long i can bear the need to use it.

i hope that i can be more reasonable in doing so.

prey for me !!!

msn

yes, msn. i am sure that all voip programs that people are using most in the internet is msn. for a long time in the past i opposed to people who used msn because i saw them using it and they just did it days and nights. i did not want to be its slave.

not long ago a friend of mine asked me to use it. With unavoidable reasons i had to use it and after a while i understand that why so many people like it so much.

we have to accept that the msn is the only tool that it can bring us closer. telephone can do but only to some extent. msn can transfer files, talking and viewing each other in real time with the lowest cost.

after i used it for a while then i was its slave. i have to sign in whenever i am free, to see if any of my friend's account are online and if they are online should i call them or not, are they busy or may interrupt them if i call? those are the questions that i had to answer. i had to gaze at my screen all the time and if no one call then i was frustrated.

Those are the things that has happened in my past months that i used msn. sometimes i even fight with my friends online. I know that it is not good but when we chat for a while we get in each other's life deeper and deeper. so when we do that of course our temper rise and fight without any reasonable reason.

one day when the most unreasonable reasons came to the peak i had to think of the use of msn. some questions came up, should i used msn anymore? what would happen to my free time after cutting msn line and so on. i could not answer all these questions arised so in order to know i deleted all my msn program from my computer. it was good for a while but my habit on using msn has rooted in my mine too deep until i longed so much to use it again. i talked to my friend and he gave me a good reason.

computer is not wrong, msn is not wrong but what is wrong is myself. i who can not control myself good enough so it is me who should be deleted from internet and in this world too.

i came back to my sense so i installed it again my msn and using it until now only in one condition that i will answer calls or not up to myself and i will not call any of my accounts to avoid any interruption to my dear friends.

i am happier now when i am not its slave. so i learn that being slave to anything or anyone is unwise as we are human beings. We should be free.

free man as i am now.

are you free too?

amazing life.

it is amazing this thing call life.

i have heard many people said about life in different shades. Some said life is beautiful but some said life is difficult, ugly, interesting, dull, wonderful or even boring. So life has many shades according to what he view of it.

and in all this views you may want to know what is my view? or what my view is of life?

for a man who has experiences 54 rainy seasons i think life is interesting because i have seen many views all those i said before. I had experiences of sorrow, miserable life, difficult and happiness in different times. once when i was in the midddle east i worked in Hotel business i had seen life of outside the hotel as very very difficult life, hot and humid all the time unlike the life in the hotel which was completely different. i even think how could those people outside could live but anyway they have been survived for a long time in the long history of their lives.

after i came back from the places i had another different experiences. i had married, had children of my own which bring me happiness to fulfill ,my life. My elder daughter is blind to some people that is miserable but to me i think that is good. becasue i can take good care of her and since we all have to take care so my family love each other more and more from this. Who knows if we do not have a blind child in our family we may not understand others as much as this.

so i think life is amazing, beautiful and sorrow too up to what i value it.

what is your life?

what is a dear friend?

many of us has friends, but how many of us has dear friend. How can we count him or her as a dear friend?

well in my opinion dear friend should be more than just an ordinary friends. Dear friend should wish and help his friend as much as he can. He should not related any of his secrets to anyone else because he trust you so that he pass his message to you. If anyone do this we should not count him as a dear friend.

I think of if quite often of this truth and sometimes sorry to myself that many times i did related my friends secrets to someone else, he or her, that they should not know. When i did this i had to ask myself all the time of the question, Why did i do that? sometimes i got the answer but so many times i was frustrated.

so to all my friends who i had betrayed i am deeply sorry now and you should not anymore count me as even your ordinary friends. i know that the broken glass can not be fixed to be as before. please do not hesitate to call me anymore I understand of my situation well.

really sorry to you all.

the poem in my memory

many of us fancy some poems and still remember it even when we are getting older. After some time passed i remember a poem and whenever i think of it i feel very happy. This is the poem that i still remember after 35 years already passed.

the wind is high,
the sky is blue
i am here
but where are you

what ever you are,
where ever you be
on land or on sea,
i still love you.

love is like a war
easy to start
but hard to stop

what ever you are
where ever you be
on land or on sea
please remember me dear

it is a love poem but whenever i think of it i feel the happy atmosphere when i was young and stayed with my friends at the high school.

i am 54 now and unbelievable that after 35 years i still remember the poem vividly like every things has just passed by me yesterday.

i feel like i am young again, young at my heart even my body is weary.

my music

i know that we have different taste of music , some like classic or some like pop but for me i like all music only my mood in each situation that count.

last week i stumbled to my about 100 cds, about 1000 songs, to choose for the songs that i like most. after i finished them i had some counting and, to my astonishment, i really have about 30 songs that i like most ranging from music alone to with vocal of various singers. in all this i had separated it to only music alone about 12 songs and the rest with vocals.

i had made a separated cd and use it to listen for my own pleasure when i am on computer to update this my blog.

i know that some of you may like to hear some of my choices so just leave your address and i will send you some.

dear friends

friends all,
The bright sunrise is shining through the small hole of my window this morning after the rainy dark night. i woke up early this morning and wonder what the beautiful world this is today. the sunrise is so yellow that it diminish all other flowers on my desk look so dim. after the restless night i feel very much better today. sometimes when people come to know something that bother him for a long time then after his eyes are clear they can see the beautiful sky as so bright as it is again.

i have to admit that lately i was not much of myself because i clinged to something that i do not know what it was. my mind was like in a haze and my brain was so washed out. may be because i am older or because some chemical, hormone, on my body change a bit. of course at this age everyone will have the hormone effect more or less will be.

i just want to tell you that your friend, thavisak, is back and will come to write of his views of things he sees again. i hope i can keep on my habit of writing as before.

don't pity me of my ignorant as a little boy for the times passed by months ago.

dear travelers

many nights i laid down on my back at the porch of my house looking up in the dark night full of stars far far away. i don't know how much stars they have in the dark sky but i think there must be millions floating in the endless space.

suddenly i wonder if there is any other creatures looking at me as i am wondering for them? i believe that there is not only us in this endless universe but some life forms must exist in elsewhere too. our planet is suitable for this life form and so we are emerged form dust. those uncountable stars must be suitable for some different life forms too. we are not alone.

if there be any other life forms so what form are there in? we have heard many stories of ufo but none of them has concrete evidence until there is no doubt anymore. Some said they are like travelers wondering fom stars to stars searching for friends. i hope that one day we will be able to contact those travelers and asking them for helps to cure of our suffering diseases.

tonight i am still lying down on my back and hoping for the impossible hope .

dear friends

dinner at songkhla beach

very good we had dinner at the Songkhla Beach.
The weather was good. the soft wind blew from the east passed the Thai gulf warmed us a little bit. we had some baked chicken, some sticky rice, and mixed vegetable with prawn. it was not cost much only tb 200 and all 4 of us were full. we could not eat anything more when we came back.

After about an hour on the beach the weather changed from bright sunny to cloudy climate and in a short time it rained slightly. we had to go back home after that.

this was the first time that we had dinner together on the beach after this new year 2009